Tonight, the very first night he is at mlysia. Luckily this year he didnt go for a week, or else what? obviously i would cry for his return.. yeahyeah i knw it's just a few days, the thing is i see him almost everyday so if i dont get to hear his voice or receive a text message i feel smth not right. Him is no longer a want but a need. See how significant is he to me nw, probably no one knws, i dont need no one to knw but just him, i want him to knw. haha sooo cheesy(havin crampy laughs). w/o him is like eating fishball soup w/o fishball. Drinking ice lemon tea w/o lemon. Eating nasi lemak w/o nasi. The feeling right inside me makes me feel uneasy and nauseous. When people you treasured alot are nt arnd you, you tends to feel the importance of them yet when they are arnd you, you rather take them for granted.
Yes, i do admit that i take him for granted at times. it's jus smth in me that i find it so difficult to chnge and that includes my hot temper-ness. It more like an habit, bad one to say. Like people say bad habits are like drugs, they are difficult to live w/o it, even tho they jus come and go. i feel sry for myself and for Him, cause of my habit he suffers, if he's gonna suffer so am i. It's a ratio 1:1, it balances out, so if he's gonna be happy i am, if i'm nt so will he.
All i wanna say, him, my baby, syngku. i apologies to all my wrongdoings, needless to say my foul temper, my harsh words. Altho sometimes i may be harsh towards you, sometimes it's for your own good but sometimes it's me who over reacted, i apologies. But you mus unstnd that when it comes to the end of the day i still love you and pamper you, i'm sure you knw that very clearly and no matter wht i do, it's for the sake of you and us, nvr hv i tried to harm or do anythn negative to you. Jus that i shldnt be a pain in your ass but a angel protecting you.

, Te amo (: